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I usually don't post about stuff like this, but it is just so present for me at the moment. ^^° I'm not feeling well in my own body and men are stressing me out. They really are. Isn't this supposed to be easy? I feel like a teenager though I turned 21 recently. I should probably think about more important things. ^^

I don't think I'm a jealous person. Not in the negative sense of the word. It's not that I envy the other person and wish she would not have what she has, but I just end up thinking something like "Ahh~ いいな～ I'd like to have that too".

To have a share in something.

That's probably it. I don't want other people to not have something but I just want to have it too. ^^° Is that twisted?

There is not much to blog about. I've read stuff for my Gender Studies class for about 4 hours now and it's not going to end. I still have no topic for my essay and I honestly just want to cut this damn course. The stuff we read in class up till now is not helping at all. I mean... what did I learn? That people are arguing about the right use of stupid terms and that different authors cannot decide who's more at fault in analysing stuff? What's the point, honestly?! I don't get it... I just don't see a problem I could probably discuss in an essay. Don't know where these authors are getting at.

 

I started to fight my over-weight again. This time it's Metabolic Balance since I actually feel sleepy all the time and cannot concentrate properly. I hope healthy food will solve this in a way and I'll be fit again. It's just that I cannot do it properly... I cannot bring myself to follow the instructions for at least one week. x_x But it's better now, I guess.

 

My parents travelled to Mallorca so I got the car. ^n^ Yay~! I'll go and buy food on Monday, what is actually pretty awesome because I won't have to carry heavy water bottles all the way home. *___* While I'm at it, I'll just buy all the heavy stuff I'll need in near future anyway. XD But there's one problem: ... Do I really have to drive in the center of Potsdam? I'm totally not a good city driver. X_X

 

That's it, I guess. I'll just get ready to sleep now. Tomorrow's going to be another day with a lot of Gender Studies and Linguistics II and bla.

Just uploading some pictures so my friends can see them. *lol* I kind of think they have a right to, since they are IN the pictures.

Starring: Steffen (two times), Johsti and me (who's not in the shot).

 

 

Edit:

Since I've got the permission to keep the pics online, I can as well write something more about it. *lol*

Isn't it funny how grown up people can have so much fun playing with a frisbee? XD Honestly... who needs a playstation when you can have a frisbee? It has been a long time since I actually went outside to play. But I totally enjoyed it. ^^

 

Actually, university is a strange thing. When I graduated from school, I was VERY unsure about university. I'm not the type to make friends easily so I wondered if I would be able to even talk to people. Organizing stuff, having courses and lectures, thinking of the years to come... I was so afraid. X_X But everything turned out to be a lot easier than I thought. Not the whole university thing, but finding friends. Only by chance, I met some girls who were studying the exact same subjects I did. It's not like we're BFFs now (and it seems like we're not even seeing each other often any more), but in the end, they introduced me to some people I can very well imagine to become BFFs with in the future. It's so easy to be with them. I usually hate to hang out with people I don't know, having small talk and all. But during the past semester break, after hanging out with some people, having random dorm parties... I thought that being alone was extremely boring! I ever actually thought so before. Oo But it was so funny and not awkward at all. It took me about 4 years in school to become good friends with two of my class mates, but it took me only one semester to get close to a lot more people in university. Amazing world.

So besides moving to Golm, starting university and struggling with lectures, courses and seminars, my life has changed quite a bit. In a good way. I guess it means I'm not completely antisocial. *lol* Halleluja for that.

 

 

Oh, I almost forgot:

Steffen B. (see the pictures above) is still single and looking for a girlfriend. ;) Comment and mail sections are now open for applications! XD

 

 

Snow! Like... everywhere! O___O

 

We didn't have white christmas this year and, honestly, I didn't expect it to snow this winter anyways. It's not likely to snow in my region. Well, it does! But the thin layer of snow will melt with the first sunrays anyway. It's always like that.

 

Or so I thought!

 

This year it's like... woooooah! So, although my feet were hurting like hell (bad shoes! >_<), I took a walk through the park next to my university instead of taking the bus (that I had missed anyway). And I SO love my new mobile for the photos I can take with it! *___*

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

PS.: I'm really looking forward to Nakushita Kioku! I finished listening to the audio book of the original novel ("Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac")  today and I can totally see why they renamed Will Mirai! Come on, shoot the movie faster! XDDD

I haven't updated for, like, forever. X_X My last post was in July! It's December already!

So much changed since then! I mean... I got into university, found a lot of new friends, lost about 7 kg and my best friend is married now... wow. Oo Although I wanted to update properly...

 

My grandmother is staying for Christmas (that is today) and the days after and I still have to wrap some gifts. My best friend says she got her package today (even though I forgot to send the cookies and the NEWS album she paid for already). I haven't send anything to Ryu though. >_< A few days ago I received a letter from him with a cute post card in it. I guess it'll be too late to send something in return now... *domp*

 

I skyped with my penpal recently. ^.^ I was SO nervous and made a list of things to talk about when there is awkward silence, but it actually never happened! He was just totally cute, mixing up English and German and Japanese and it was really fun. It was kinda pronunciation lesson, like "What's the difference between German O and Ö? U and Ü? What about E and Ä?" and stuff like that, but I had so much fun! We had talked for almost three hours before I even knew it! But I realized once again that my Japanese still sucks and I have to learn properly. But I'm the type who's too lazy to look up words even when I need them...

Anyways. Hope we'll skype again soon. ^.^ Skype is one of my favourite programs recently. I only talked to my sis and mentioned penpal, but maybe I can get more friends to use it. ^n^ Since I have to improve my English, I'd love to talk to foreign speakers, but I'm quite shy so I never actually ask someone. X_X

 

Last thing: I'm on twitter now. Why? Because I stalk people's LJs, that's all. I'll have my best friend join too. *lol*

 

That's it for tonight. It's Christmas already! I have to go to bed so it soon will be morning and :3 and <3 and Christmas~! Yay~~~!

*lol* My sister was visiting this weekend, so a lot of quite senseless pictures and videos were taken.

Since the German national team was playing in the finals, we went for public viewing. It was so absolutely crowded that he'd some problems finding a place to sit. But it was fun though! XD

We were sitting down and jumping up in turns, made our flag fly and my sister was cheering for Jens Lehmann all the time. *lol*

Well, Germany lost the game but there is still the World Cup to come! ^.~

"In zwei Jahren werden wir uns rächen~ Wir werden die Herzen aller Spanier brechen~"

 

 

My sister filming the surroundings and people and flaggs-

 

 

- and I'm filming even more flaggs. XD I remember this song being played on Rome's streets when Italy won the World Cup in 2006. I was in Rome on holiday that time and my parents and me were wondering why a German song was playing in front of the Colloseum when Italy won the World Cup. *lol* Strange world.

 

 

 

Some random pictures of our last day before she went home again.

 

Breakfast at a bakery after our little photo shooting. ^n^

 

 

 

 

I was SO obsessed with this serie when I was 11 years old. XD It is so old by now (and I really liked only the first season for that matter), but when I saw the CD, I had to buy it right away. So I own a Digimon CD now. Yay~ I felt like being 11 again! XD

 

 

And because it is my favourite summer song, I have to add this:

 

We wanted to do this while driving but couldn't, so we did it on the train. *lol*

Looking at it now, it seems like I'm staring at you, 姉ちゃん. XD But the truth is: When I looked to the other side, I saw people staring at me like ô_ó and that was a bit embarressing, so I looked at you. *lol* That's probably also the reason I'm not moving as much as you do. But it was fun. *lol* Let's do that again!

Yay~

It was my prom this weekend. I never thought it would be so much fun. XD Everything went well and everyone was happy. I just want to post some pictures, that's all. ^^

 

<--- all my classmates

 

 

 

<--- me and my parents

 

 

<--- ....me and coke? (It really IS coke! No beer for me this evening. XD)

 

 

<--- two of my best friends from school

 

 

 

 

This is a short video I took. Our boys going wild. XD In my opinion, they were the funniest act this evening!

 

 

 

 

That's it already. *lol* Me and my family left at about 1am.

I wanted to post new stuff days ago, but I never had the time to do so (aka I was too lazy). I took photos of different things. So this time, it won't be a report with some pictures but a huge picspam with some words. XD

 

First of all

Last school day

My last school day was weeks ago, but I wanted to post this one picture, just to show the world: We enjoyed ourselves. *lol*

Then

My home town

I took some pictures of my home town. A friend of mine did this some time ago and I thought it was quite interesting. Although it's not special in any way, I really like my hometown. So here it is. It was a not very sunny day and it was going to get dark too. Therefore there are not a lot of people around. ^^° 

<-- I'm living in a building like this. In my neighbourhood, a lot of them are almost empty, so they're getting pulled down one by one.

 

 

 

<-- There are four towers like that in my town. In former times, the city wall was connected to them. This one I see often because it's on my way to the centre. Another one you can see at the bottom of this pic chain.

 

<-- This is the lake winding it's way through the city. A lot of water sport competitions take place here like rowing and stuff. It's not very interesting though. *lol* Since this weekend there will be a festival, I saw people build up the water stage. Every year there is a stage on the water where bands perform. Maybe I will take a picture then.

 

<-- Just a random shoot. It's the mainstreet. It does not look very mainstreet-ish when no one's around though. ^^°

 

 

 

<-- It's the building of the local press but there is also a bar and a gym. I just took this picture for my sister. Nee-chan, look! See the yellow writing? That's where I always go for training.... well, not in the past few weeks. ^^°°

 

<-- *lol* I had to introduce you to Fritze Bollmann!  There is a song about him. Well, Fritze Bollmann is a barber that went fishing, fell into the lake and drowned. In heaven he was nagging St. Peter so much that he was sent back to earth. I had to learn that song in primary school.

 

<-- It is the first verse of the song. They are written around the fountain. I know some friends of mine are learning German and read this blog. Please do not learn this! It is dialect German and even I had problems understanding some of the other verses... >_<

 

 

<-- The second tower. That's it. *lol*

 

 

 Preparations for the prom

Some days ago my class went to the hall we will have our prom at to practice some things. I took some random pictures and filmed my class mates doing weird stuff. XD

<-- The hall. Well... there are still tables and chairs everywhere. I hope we can do something about the light. It was just... dark. The stage was also not to be seen properly. >_<

 

 

<-- I just had to include this picture since Kristin usually hates to be on photos. But this time she is smiling!

 

 

 

<-- Posing.... kind of. *lol*

--> Two videos of my classmates doing weird stuff. XD Enjoy!

 

 

 

 

 

University Potsdam

I hope this will be my future university. Last week I went there a few times to look around and see what it's like to be a student. *lol* These are some pictures of one of the campuses.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(Random pictures, therefore no comments. ^^°)

 

And last but not least:

日本デー

in Düsseldorf!

4th June 2008 - "Japantag" in Düsseldorf. It was like a birthday gift from my parents. ^^ I was really happy to go there! Maybe it'll be a little bit too much to explain now what exactly the Japan Day is... but important is: it was a LOT of fun, I ate things I always wanted to eat (Takoyaki = <3! Curryreis = <3! Maccha Ice = <3!) and the fireworks in the end were really fantastic. I was filming a lot that day but until now I couldn't figure out how to get these files onto my computer. ^^° So I will just post pictures.

<-- Jenny and me. There is nothing more to say. *lol*

 

 

 

<-- I love these balloons! We were carrying them around all day.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

<-- Waiting for the fireworks. We were sitting there for about 2 hours. ^^° But it was an amazing place to watch from. The fireworks were right in front of us.

 

 

<-- Just like this. *lol*

 

 

 

<-- This picture cannot express how great it was. Really... it was like thousands of shootings stars coming down right above me. The pamphlet said "Rain of gold above Dusseldorf" and it was exaclty that.

 

To come to an end: I love Düsseldorf. *lol* I love it for the Japanese food and for the festival and, above all, for the プリクラ machines! *_* Really... I want one to be in Berlin! I want to take photos more often. ^^°

 

That's it for today. XD What a long post! I hope you could enjoy it.

I got my results yesterday.

I was quite nervous since I would have to do even more exams if my results differed too much from my usual abilities. But I got this sheet of paper with my results written on it and I was very happy since it was written that I would not have to do exams again. *_*

I am very proud of myself now. ^^ I really had to struggle with myself during my learning period and now the results are a lot better than I expected them to be! A lot! My English result almost made me cry. 15 points in the final exam... I never got 15 points before! That's 100%. *_* Now my 1st choice university will accept me for sure! Well, at least concerning English. There is still restricted admission for my second field of study... and I have to fight again.

When the last term was nearly at an end, I had to run for good marks. I tried everything possible to get another good mark that would help me in the finals. x_x In the end I was not able to reach my goal. Now it is a similar situation. ^^°

If I only could get 4 more points,.. With this 4 points, I could reach the numerus clausus my 1st choice university had announced for last year's applicants. I do not know what restrictions there will be this year of course. But certainly it won't get easier. ò_ó

So I will do another voluntary exam for History. I will have to reach 13 points out of 15... and I never even got close to that in school. ^^° The good thing: it cannot get worse! I cannot ruin anything by doing this exam. But... I have to learn everything again. And even my history teacher recommended not to do this additional exam. u_u°

I'm quite sick of it. ^^° I really am. But it would be stupid to stop now, right? It is just one exam... one exam I'm taking no risks with. Even if I'll make a complete fool of myself not knowing anything, being depressed in the end,.. I cannot lose. And I would be even more depressed if I never tried in the first place. 

 

So once again: ファイト~~~~~~ OH!!

 

 

My mother is going to plant those on the balcony.

In summer I like to be there a lot! There is sun from morning till evening and my mother always takes care of the flowers, decorations and stuff.

But... it would be even nicer if my father wasn't having an obsession with cactuses! >_< Just look at the picture! See that ugly cactus?

Well, there do exist beautiful cactuses. But the ones on our balcony are definitely not. And they hurt!

Our balcony is quite narrow. So it had happened many times that I was sitting there, my arm slipped off of the armrest and *PAN*, the cactus was right next to me.   -_- There is not enough space for cactuses AND me! >_< One of us has to go! ò_ó Well... mostly I'm the one to show the white feather...